Happy New Year, everyone!
Each year, I like to take a moment to reflect on the past year and share some of my highlights. I also want to share what’s on my mind for 2019.
2018 Wasn’t Nice to My Emotions
2018 was a crazy ride for me emotionally. I started the year looking for a change and unsure of what I wanted to do with myself (gotta love that quarter-life crisis), but then everything came crashing down. If you were following along with my 100 days to write a novel project on my non-beauty channel, you may remember that at the very end, my life got upended.
One of the many mass shootings in my country came way too close to home, when one of my loved ones was enjoying a nice lunch. Thankfully, they got away with a few scrapes. But my personal life became a totally new landscape that I’m only just now getting familiar with. I wasn’t exercising or eating well, I wasn’t working on my writing projects, and I wasn’t working on my blogs or YouTube channels. I wasn’t really myself. My excitement over my new LLC and self-publishing goals wasn’t as important as everything else.
I needed lots of space and time. So I ended up traveling unexpectedly quite a few times. It helped force me out of my head. It also put off a lot of the issues I needed to handle until I had another plane to catch.
I’m in a much better place now. I’ve invested a lot of energy into my relationships this year and worked on refocusing myself. I’ll talk more about this in a sec.
But for now, let’s look at the highlights. And yes, there were some amazing moments this year!
I Launched an Ebook and Started an LLC
This is still my #1 highlight this year. Even though my plans for my company got pushed aside, I’m still so proud of myself for taking this huge leap and investing in myself and my content.
Legitimizing my work outside of my full-time job meant that I believed in myself and my dreams. I still do.
I Made Time for a Social Life
I’ve always struggled with making and keeping friends, and connecting with my family. Much of my anxiety centers around social anxiety, and it was always so hard for me to manage it.
This year, I’ve spent multiple days each month going out to delicious meals, cooking and playing board games, or going for a hike or walk on the beach with friends. I’ve also made an effort to spend time with my family. Some of my family is local, so my boyfriend and I will pop down for a meal once or twice a month. I had other family coming into town now and then, and I traveled to see them, too.
The anxiety doesn’t go away, but I have a growing circle of family and friends that I never thought was possible for me. All I had to do was say yes to plans that come up and make the time to reach out and meet up.
I Visited New Places
I had some crazy traveling opportunities this year, and I’ve never had a problem jumping right onboard and figuring out the logistics later. This added up to a lot of “PTO for a long weekend, then work from my dad’s house for a week, then one day in the office, then a week of PTO, then I’m back for two weeks before I take another week and a half off…” Let’s all take a moment to appreciate the good bosses of the world!
The most major trip was in the summer, when I spent ten days in Peru to volunteer with some of my coworker friends.
It was an absolutely incredible experience! We did a lot of home renovation work that I didn’t think I was qualified to do, but we were able to work together to help a couple families. Then, we ended the trip with a visit to Machu Picchu and the winter solstice festival. One of my goals for 2018 was to take an international trip. This was not at all what I expected when I set that goal, but it was exactly what I needed.
I also hopped around the US: Maui for the first time since I was 11, Denver for the first time ever, LA for Eat Drink Vegan, Palm Springs, Ohio (twice), and Pennsylvania.
I Ran a 5K
I didn’t do all that great, but I finished!
I Failed A Lot… And Picked Myself Up Again
I filmed videos that will never make it online, ditched countless blog post drafts, pushed out and crossed out project and story ideas. I dropped all my routines to travel and tried to add them back when I returned. I was placed on a new team at my job and took a while to adjust.
But every time, I got back up. I tried to learn and fix what wasn’t working so I could improve. I’ve been learning how to not treat the bumps in my journey as setbacks.
2019, Let’s Go!
I spent a few days coming up with a few simple goals for the year that were more specific than last year’s, and that cover more of the different pieces of my life.
But first I prioritized: My emotional and physical health come first. If I’m ever stuck between filming a video and working out, or going to a party and taking the quiet night I need to recharge, I’m going to choose whatever best serves my body and mind. Then comes the rest.
As for my goals, here’s what I’m aiming for:
- Finish a draft of one of my books by June 1 – I’ve got the specific one in my notes, so I’m spending this month to plan before setting some word count goals for the next few months.
- Use therapy – It’s helped so much over the past year, and I need to continue investing in my mental health.
- Exercise 3x/week by the end of Q1 – Sickness and travel wiped the slate clean over the past month or so. I’m working my way up slowly as I get back into my regular routine.
- Blog and video goals – I put down a number for each of my blogs and YouTube channels that I’m comfortable with.
- Schedule monthly date nights with my boyfriend once a month – We’ll switch off planning the dates.
- Complete monthly challenges to build positive habits – I did this in 2017 and I missed it last year. Committing to 30 days is a great, low-stakes way to try new routines and develop new habits.
- Start singing lessons in Q2 – I used to sing, and I stopped. I want to try taking lessons again because I think it will be nice to have something that’s just about having fun.
- Start a podcast in Q3 – I have the specific idea in my notes. This is something that’s been on my mind for the past year or so, and I’m excited to try making content in a new space.
I hope that my story and goals were interesting or helpful in some way. What’s on your mind in 2019? What are your goals?
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